me - a dangerous species

yes, i'm a dangerous species. From the outside, I look very nice. I'm always quiet. I don't get involved in a lot of arguments. I don't strain my throat to fight for my opinions. If you bully me, I will still just smile or maybe I will walk away without saying any words ... but wait, don't think you should bully me ... because as i said, I'm a dangerous species. I'm quiet but that doesn't mean i don't have my own judgement. In fact, i have a lot of judgements. And the dangerous thing is I don't say it out. So you don't know what I really think about you. I may be smiling at you but you can never be sure what I really think ... hmm ... and it is a bit hard to know those thoughts of mine because I guess I can control my temper quite well as long as you don't intrude to my private life too much, I won't say anything ... ha! but when the time comes, you will know ... when i have to provide testimony for you, all the judgements will come. It's not that I'm not forgiving ... i do forgive and perhaps forget, but of course, I do remember sometimes and that will make me reconsider things ... Appearance is deceiving ... don't ever say "oh, she's very nice". That is a wrong judgement of me. I'm very cruel. Just that you don't know that. You are either inside my strict and tight ring of principles or outside of it. Most people are outside of it. Once you are outside, you are forever outside. My eyes and soul are guarded with so many security gates .. it's hard for you to get through ... yes, me, the dangerous species ..

I'm prideful. I'm not going to deny it. don't worry! I don't suffer from megalomania. Prideful here means I think everybody is equal. I don't think you are better than me or I am better than you. I believe everyone has his own gifts and he has to explore his own potential. BUT, that means don't ever try to act as if you are better than anyone of us. If you're not gonna be humble, you are dead before me. It is ironic like one of my teachers say that when someone is prideful, you hate that someone because he is hurting your pride. I'm not going to reject and say that is wrong. That is absolutely right, at least for me. Humble yourself before other people, I will humble myself before you. If you don't, good luck! don't think just me who don't like you ... many ...