my major

Due to the increasing uncertainty I feel about what I should do in the future, I've taken 3 tests to see what they say about what I should do. I've tried to be as truthful and objective as possible. And all of the 3 tests say I should go to the finance, economics sector ... this is the list ... Actually i think the order of preferrence is quite right :)

You scored as Accounting/Finance/Marketing, You should strongly consider majoring (or minoring) in Accounting, Finance, Economics, Marketing, or related majors (e.g., Computer/Management Information Systems (CIS or MIS), Entrepreneurship, International Business, Operations Management, Public Administration, Real Estate, Risk Management, Sports Management). It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it. Consider adding a minor or double majoring to make yourself standout and to combine your interests. Please post your results in your myspace/blog/journal. Accounting/Finance/Marketing 94% Education/Counseling 88% Mathematics/Statistics 75% Psychology/Sociology 75% French/Spanish/OtherLanguage 75% Biology/Chemistry/Geology 69% HR/BusinessManagement 69% Physics/Engineering/Computer 63% Religion/Theology 63% Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health 63% History/Anthropology/LiberalArts 56% English/Journalism/Comm 56% PoliticalScience/Philosophy 56% Visual&PerformingArts 44% WHAT MAJOR IS RIGHT FOR YOU? created with QuizFarm.com

imperfect - a confession

Nothing is perfect. We all know that very well. I know that very well too. I've known very well that I will never be perfect ... i know that. Please do not imply that I wanted to be perfect. I've always wanted to be the best I can but I know perfection is never to be achieved. But so far, I've gotten perfect scores and some nearly-perfect things ... but as it turned out, imperfection has come to me in the most unexpected way, in a way that no one sees and may be few care ...

There are a lot of things that will never coexist. For example, if you a male, you will never be a female. Things automatically eliminate each other just like a natural process ... some of these elimination you are aware of ... some takes time. I've got perfect scores several times. I am seen as a perfect student several times ... and this perfection automatically eliminates something else, making my life imperfect. I'm not allowed to be scared. I'm not allowed to be worried when exams come. If I'm scared, it does seem that I'm being insensitive to others. People will say, if I'm scared, then they will die. I'm not blaming them. If I were them, I guess I would say the same thing. But the thing here is the future is always uncertain. There is no guarantee that if I have a good score in the previous test, I will have a better score in the next test. Yes, people are right if they say if I have a good score, that means I've already understood most of the things tested so there's no need to be scared. You may think I'm irrational and just paranoid if I say how can I be sure that I understand everything. So, worry ... yes, I do feel it but I guess I cannot express it. And the saddest thing is that "you don't need help". Maybe it's right. Maybe it is also because of me who prefer to figure out things on my own. But don't you think that is an imperfection in one's life. Living your life without needing help? Sometimes, I want to approach someone to ask for help too but ... firstly, what should I ask? secondly, is that person available for me to ask? ... :( ... You may think I'm being snobbish and having pride over the fact that I don't need anyone but i guess you are wrong. No, I'm not snobbish. It is just I have a different perspective from you ... being lonely and doing things on your own is an imperfection ...

When you don't have the things most people don't have, you don't feel very bad. But when you don't have the things most people have, it certainly does not feel good. If I try to be fair, I do have something that a lot don't have but in return, i don't have things that a lot of you have ... yes ...

They say, when much is given, much is expected ... but if you want to think in an economic way, when much is given, more is expected. People want to have economic surplus, they don't give to receive back the same amount. I guess I'm given something, so I guess I have to work hard, lose something else to give back what is expected. Don't think I don't love my life. If I ever start my life all over again, I will still choose to live my life this way. Just that sometimes, a little bit of reflection is just to help me understand myself better and just to realize that I'm forever not special, forever a normal person who have missing pieces of life that can never be found ...

the amazing meganame generator

hahahahahahahahahaha .... i can laugh until tomorrow ...

Han Khanh Ngoc Huynh's Aliases

Your movie star name: Anything Dai Your fashion designer name is Han Paris Your socialite name is Han Den Ho Chi Minh City Your fly girl / guy name is H Huy Your detective name is Puppy Anglo-Chinese Junior College Your barfly name is Kusuka Nothing Your soap opera name is Khanh Ngoc Hoang Hoa Tham Your rock star name is Anything Air Your Star Wars name is Hanlit Huy--- Your punk rock band name is The Neutral Nothing

The Amazing Meganame Generator

what sign woman are you, really?

my goodness, this is so right ...

Your True Sign Is Virgo

Shy Picky Genuine Smart and Logical Caring and Helpful A Total Perfectionist On the Conservative Side More Listening Than Talking

What Sign Woman Are You, Really?

bicentennial man

I intended to do some productive work today but could resist the temptation to watch a movie instead of flipping some more pages of notes for revision, so I watched "bicentennial man". My friend talked about it a long time ago but this is the first time I ever had a chance to view it and see how good it is. hmm ... they have made a lot of movies about robots out there and ironically, movies about robots talk about humanity. I've watched "artificial intelligence", one film which I don't remember the title but roughly remember the plot and the leading actor is Will Smith and today, "bicentennial man". Will Smith's movie is more about the crazy things that people are doing to destroy the world but "artificial intelligence" and "bicentennial man" is about a robot's yearning to have love, to feel and most importantly, to be recognized as a human. You all should watch both movies. Those two robots cannot be any more human than that. In "artificial intelligence", you can't help crying when you how the robot boy yearns for his "mother", his quest to be a human so that his "mother" will love him, his burning desire to be "one of the kind" and then ... the ending scence, when he is actually the only "human" left in this world and how he actually finds his mother and lives with her in just one day ... one day ... only on that one day that he can say "i've found you". You can feel his fear and his feeling of loss when he is abandoned. You can hear the sound of his heart crying and begging for somebody to show him how to find his mother ... In "bicentennial man", he first leanrs to enjoy things and then, he yearns to be free. Then, he wants to seek for other robots who are like him and miraculously, he met a rejected genius scientist who continuously upgrades him whenever he finds something new which eventually even helps him to grow old and dies besides the love of his life ... Andrew ... a truly faithful, polite, wise, funny, patient, determined human .. he doesn't live to know he is declared a man but as his wife says, he doesn't need that because we, as the audience to see his life's story, know very well that he is a human. Sing praise to the human species, the most remarkable and amazing creatures of God ... this species is so amazing that anyone who ever lives with us, plays with us will want to be like us ...

let him know - dedicated to happygrass

it is so unfair that he who loves, who cares and who sacrifices have the loves taken away from him. Many people who don't love, don't care and don't sacrifice have loves flooding their lives. It is he who shows me an undying, selfless love but time and again, love does seem to fail him ... and i too, i too who is guilty of exacerbating this situation. I sent him my love but then I stopped ... it broke his heart but he refused to stop loving me ... love holds him back from achieving many things but he never questions ... never feels that is unfair. Sometimes, he says he wants to change a bit, to be a little bit stronger but then, he admits that this is the way he has been and will always be ... let him be ... let him be ... please let no evil touch him ... please send him love ... please embrace him in your heart. I am sorry for the things I have done to him but I always want to be his friend. Please let him not be scared that I am only pitying him because I'm not ... for one reason or another, he has been a part of my life and a part of my soul. What he has done has changed my life ... If the book of my life is ever written, there will be one chapter named after him ... Please let him know that I always care for him ... not in the same way as how I did in the past but ... I still care for him ... Let him know I may be a little bit cold and nonchalant and I rarely replied sms but he is in my thought when I pray ... Let him know I will be strong for him and he should be strong too ... Let him know his life is one of the most worth-living life I've ever known ... Let him know as long as we both live, he can always call me up and I will be there for him ... because he is my friend ...

let me love you

today, i want to ask for the strength to be given to me so that I can love unconditionally and without any expectation of being loved back. I have been very selfish and want all the love to be given to me ... but today, I want to change. Yes, I want to change. I want to love even though the one I love will not love me back. Though I must admit the thought of you who will never love me back breaks my heart and makes me cry ... and I actually cried but I ask for the strength not to resent you and not to be angry at you for your peccadillo but to love you even more. Love is perfect when it is mutual but when it is not mutual, what should we do? Most people say we should stop loving that person because it is too painful for us to continue .. but I guess I will still love you no matter what. You don't love me, fine. But if I kill the love I have for you inside, I am sinful to myself because I'm killing one of the most valuable things in my life ... so just let me love you. I promise I will not cause any nuisance to you. There will be no subtle nuances in your life, I promise. I know you do not know how much I care for you but please never ever be upset and feel alone because I'm here, loving you. One day, maybe we will part. Maybe I will stop loving you because feelings will go away if you stop nurturing them but I will remember, somewhere in this part of my life, I have loved you ... genuinely and unconditionally ...

to my dear child

My dear child, i have some thoughts of you today. I have comprehended the happiness I will have on the day I know I will have you in my life. You are such a beautiful child. The day I know you are coming to existence, I will start reducing my workload so that you will not have to suffer from stress since your young age. You will want to know how wonderful and amazing this life is, right, my child. I will spend a bit of my time now and then to tell you about this life ... your dad, too ... we will love you from the very start. You are the result, the fruit of our love ... and our lives will be completely changed the day you shout out to the world that you have come to life ... maybe I will cry too ... the tears of a mother having her child delivered ... During the time I'm carrying you with me, maybe we can start to plan how we will enjoy our time together in the first few years ... Then, in the first few years, at least first 4 - 5 years, I will keep you all those excessive working and a lost childhood ... I will teach you how to say thank you, how to say sorry, how to be polite, how to be respectful, how to sit and eat properly with consideration for other people,... and most importantly, i will teach you the love for life. And then, you will go to kindergarten so that you will have friends and learn something there ... but don't worry, I won't let them pump too much studying into you ... then, perhaps you will have siblings ... Our family will go to the countryside on the holidays so you can scratch yourselves a bit but don't break any bones, ok? you will have cousins too, ... i want you to have good relationships with many people so you won't be selfish ... oh, so many things I will tell you, my child ... i love you so much

are u an attention whore?

Cool! I like this ..

You Don't Need Extra Attention

You're perfectly happy with who you are, and you don't need attention to feel good about yourself. You prefer to let your actions and accomplishments speak for themselves. Working hard to get people to like you is your idea of a nightmare. You've got a lot going on, and anyone with half a brain will notice that on their own! You come across as: Confident and serious People may wrongly think you're: Stuck up and shy

Are You An Attention Whore?

Missing somebody

I was missing somebody. I am missing somebody at this moment too but what is so weird is that I don't know who I am missing ... just a feeling of missing, of needing somebody. Of course, I'm not so weird to the point of missing the air lah. There are a few possibilities of who I actually miss ... yep, a few possibilities ... but I don't know who exactly. I guess that is weird enough. At this point of time when there are so many things that I need to cram into my head, i certainly do not enjoy my heart's company at all. I feel that gush of feeling, of missing all the time. Of course, with my power of suppression and my concentration into my study, I still can study ... but the thing is, the more you suppress it, when it comes again, it comes in a greater force ... oa oa

Mai, I read your post about a soul finding its way home ... very strange and scary too ... but maybe it is just our desire to find our home. Do you remember all those love songs when they say something like, when i see you, i find my way home. Yes, home ... that is why whenever I walk my way back to the hostel at night or travel on the bus, I always seek to find some yellow lights on the windows of those HDB flats. When i look at those yellow lights, i feel like i'm home, i can see so clearly all the things i've ever done and enjoyed with my family. oh well, ...

oh man, the teacher has disrupted all my sentimentality. I was going write so many things then a teacher just called me and lured me into science council. Oh my gosh, she said so many things. ok lah, i can give it a try but when it gets too tough ... we'll see ...

ok ... the feelings come back again. Hehe. yes, yes, I'm really yearning for some care and love at this moment. I don't know who are you, anon but just to answer question about giving up on somebody ... hmm ... difficult question lah. It takes a lot of things for me to like someone so obviously, it is not easy to give up on that someone either. This is a totally irrational thing when someone doesn't like you and you still keep the feelings for that someone but ... totally giving up ... i don't think so. Actually, it's a no-no, hopeless situation in which i can see no future (except in my imagination where i can see so many happy things) but oh well, it's feeling ... no right or wrong ... But now, i really want to have someone, someone to call, someone to sms, someone to whine about things when I feel the need to whine. I guess i sound quite selfish because that someone seems to be like a rubbish bin but no lah, i will listen to him too. Because today is a bad day and I have bothered my friend by sms-ing him my depression so i just feel i really need that someone ... but like i said, on one side, i yearn for that love, on the other side, i'm confused and feel completely unready for anyone ... yep ...

NRP

Aiyaya ... while I was exhausting myself doing last-minute revision, my partner sms me to tell me there would be a meeting today ... oa oa ... not the right time at all ... not just the time to go to NIE and the time doing experiment alone but before going there, i have to do some reading ... Actually, my professor is very nice. He didn't ask us to do anything. We just have to go to the lab, doing some experiments, make some observations, try to give some explanations (though we haven't come up with any very good explanations) ... but this is our project. Supposedly, he is just guiding us only .. so i don't want to be too much dependent on him and let him do all the work. But despite my good intentions, during term 2, he was actually the one who did most of the work. Aiya. I was super busy. Besides, this experiment is relatively unknown and not much have been done for it ... My professor did not provide a lot of introduction ... so i'm quite lost ... when i searched on the internet, they usually assume the readers are familiar to a lot of erudite information ... so the more i read, the more confused i become. My information does not seem to anchor from anywhere concrete. All the details and crazy definitions kept floating around without any clear links. But today, it does seem a little better after another one-and-a-half hour of frustration and more confusion (and of course, cannot study chem, which i planned to study this morning *sign*). But i felt better and a little bit more prepared than those previous meetings. I must learn to manage my time better and I must remind myself I am not superwoman and I cannot handle too many things at a time and so I must learn to say "no" ... but it does seem difficult coz i like so many different things ... aiya ... must learn to let go ... must learn to let go ...

Current song: i go anywhere for you, anywhere you want me to ... (super duper old already lah ... but who stops you from listening to old songs ... haha)

What makes you different? - BSB

Please sing this song to me, whoever you are, my dear darling! Hehe! Men love by eyes, women love by ears ... so say something which is so sweet and which tells me that you understand me. :) ... haha .. sound kinda superficial ... hmmm ... Ee Cheong, I remember you once said that, " 'you've touched my heart in many ways'. Guys say that to girls. Guys say that to everybody ..." Maybe it's true. But I believe there is a difference between saying this just for the sake of pleasing the listeners and saying this because you genuinely feel it ... :)

You don’t run with the crowd
You go your own way
You don’t play after dark
You light up my day

Got your own kind of style
That sets you apart
Baby that’s why you capture my heart
I know sometimes you feel
Like you don’t fit in
And this world doesn’t know
What you have within
When I look at youI see something rare
A rose that can grow anywhere
And there’s no one I know that can compare

Chorus:
What makes you different, makes you beautiful
What's there inside you shines through to me
In your eyes I see all the love I'll ever need
What makes you different makes you beautiful to me

You've got something so real
You touched me so deep
See material things
Don't matter to me
So come as you are
You've got nothing to prove
You won me with all that you do
And I wanna take this chance to say to you

[Chorus]

You don't know
How you've touched my life
Oh there's so many ways, I just can't describe (so many)
You taught me what love is supposed to be
It's all the little things that made you beautiful to me

[Chorus]

value profile

quite interesting i guess but let me consider if those things are really true or not

Your Values Profile

Loyalty: You value loyalty a fair amount. You're loyal to your friends... to a point. But if they cross you, you will reconsider your loyalties. Staying true to others is important to you, but you also stay true to yourself. Honesty: You value honesty a fair amount. You're honest when you can be, but you aren't a stickler for it. If a little white lie will make a situation more comfortable, you'll go for it. In the end, you mostly care about "situational integrity." Generosity: You don't really value generosity. Your needs always come first, no matter what. And you'll possibly help someone else out... But only if it helps you in return. Humility: You value humility a fair amount. You tend to be an easy going, humble person. But occasionally your ego takes over. You have a slight competitive streak - and the need to be the best. Tolerance: You value tolerance a fair amount. You are open to new cultures, beliefs, and ideas. You have very few prejudices that you're aware of. And while you are tolerant, you do stand true to what you believe.

The Five Factor Values Test

how do you live your life

Hmmm ... interesting ... Haha

How You Life Your Life

You are honest and direct. You tell it like it is. You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think. You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences. You have one big dream in your life, and you never lose sight of it.

How Do You Live Your Life?

old pops

old pops are slow. The words are simple. There is less electronic and distorted sound. Please do not colour me an old-fashioned geek. I do enjoy music from Pussycat dolls, Black Eyed Peas, Chris Brown, Linking Park, Hoobastank, ... too ... but I guess those music is more for entertainment. To seek meanings and some genuine feelings, I have a tendency to look more to slow music and old pops ... Michael Buble, some of Craig David's songs, Westlife ... let me share with you some of the lines I love the most:

Westlife - Close:
You give me strength
You give me hope
You give me someone to love, someone to hold
When I'm in your arms, I need you to know
I've never been, never been ... this ... close

With all the love I used to know,
I kept my distance, I never let go
But in your arms, I know i'm safe .......

Craig David - Unbelievable:
Always said I would know where to find love
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough
But sometimes I just felt I could give up
But you came and you changed my whole world now
I'm somewhere I've never been before
Now I see
What word love means

It's so unbelievable
And I don't wanna let it go
Its something so beautiful
Flowin down like a waterfall
I feel like you've always been
Forever a part of me
And it's so unbelievable
To finally be in love
Somewhere I never thought I'd be

And today, an old pop song sings to my heart:

And I love you so
And I love you so,
The people ask me how,
How I've lived 'till now,
I tell them I don't know!

I guess they understand,
How lonely life has been,
But life began again,
The day you took my hand!

And yes, I know,
How lonely life can be,
The shadows follow me,
And the night won't set me free!

But I don't let . . .
The evening get me down,
Now that you're around,
Me!

And you love me too,
Your thoughts are just for me,
You set my spirit free,
I'm happy that you do!

The book of life is brief,
And once a page is read,
All but love is dead,
That is my belief!

And yes, I know,
How lonely life can be,
The shadows follow me,
And the night won't set me free!

But I don't let . . .
The evening get me down,
Now that you're around,
Me!

i need some motivation

i'm feeling so lethargic today. Despite my slacking level in the past few days and all those previous weeks, I still do not feel any urge to study harder for my term exams. Aiya. I need something or someone to boost my energy level. Please do not laught at me or give me the sarcastic look if I tell you I like to study. Yes, I do like to study a lot. To understand the things around me, to give insights into different things and sometimes to come up with some philosophical things from those things I know really intrigue me. It's hard to explain this but I just feel that way. But I guess, my love for studying must be put in the context or side by side with my love for other things too ... if you want to say it in economic term ... it is diversification ... Haha! I want to watch TV, anime, Disney Channel, planet earth, HBO, CNA (i dun mind if they have some good show), some game shows, ... No TV here. Oh no, there's a TV here but the TV room is so not conducive for me to watch. Imagine myself sitting on that rattan round thing, tsk tsk, a little bit pathetic ... I want to talk to somebody. No, I should be more specific ... somebodIES. It would be super nice if Mai, I and our dreamed loves can form a group of close friends and then we go out together ... maybe the beach ... or Pulau Ubin. Mai, you do not know how to cycle, aren't you? Then, you can sit on your darling's bike! Ha! That will be even better ... or maybe we can just go to those game corners in the shopping mall ... you know, the game machines that you have to use coins ... do some boxing there. Haha! Or maybe we can learn some new things together ... oh, or we can do some puzzles ... 4 of us can buy a picture puzzle of 4 puppies and do together ... Hehe ... aiya, i dream too much already. With our super packed schedules, we cannot do anything ... aiya ... sad already! I'm not sure if it's just our nature to yearn for some kind of love besides that for our families when we reach this age. But I want no puppy love, no short-term fashionable love ... No no ... I want somebody to make me feel like everyday can be a good day ... but then, I'm super scared again. I don't want to steal the freedom from anyone. They too also need to do a lot of things. They too need to fly, need to meet a lot of people before they can make their choice. ok lah, i'll be fine lah ...

dear blog

Dearest blog! Do you understand me? I do not know where to start. My friend already told me long long time ago living like me would cause a lot of pain to myself. I agreed and until now, I still much agree because I'm feeling the pain right now. Why should I be living like this? I can't seem to be able to be living otherwise anyway. Living otherwise means denying my own self, which of course I don't want. But living like this ... *sign*....

A scholar's life is certainly not meant for a weak spirit. Today, I had training just to know how lousy I am. I didn't feel discouraged. It is not me to feel discouraged because deep inside of me, I always tell myself I can do anything I want. But just as I was standing strong, the water heater did not work so I could not eat my lunch, which is just instant noodle. I couldn't drink milo either so I just had to stick to oreo and the little junk food that I had left. Oh well, this made me miss my home so much. Remembering no matter how late I came home, I could always be sure that there would be something delicious for me to eat or drink, someone to scold me why I had not put sunblock and hence, turned into charcoal. Yep! I miss all those things. No, I should not be weak. I should not be dependent. I should be strong. I want to do something great in my life. If I cannot endure even these small little things, how can I ever achieve my ambitions? But oh well, we all have our soft sides, don't we?

I really want to write about my Bintan trip and how much I have enjoyed it but in this sombre mood of mine, I can only remember the sad things that I experienced or realised there. I discovered that after a long long time of living alone, caring about myself alone, I've lost something. I have become clumsy in caring about others. I did not know what to say when I had to say something. My behaviour has become weird when it comes to caring about others. And that's not all. More pathetically, I did not even know how to receive care from others. I did not know how to receive it properly without over-appreciating or under-appreciating. Everything has become so difficult for me. Yes, how funny it is when if you have not had love and care for a long time, you lose the skill to receive it. I feel so much pity for myself now.

And so at this point in time, how much I want to fall for somebody and that somebody will like me too. I will have somebody to care for me and I will have somebody to care for. But then again, if I cannot really take care of myself, how can I take care of somebody else? No no, I am too scared of relationships already. Relationship will fill my heart with joy, will recharge me anytime I need but relationship takes my time away and sometimes causes too much pain. Relationship has a lot of uncertainty because you never know if your partner is the right one and thus, jealousy comes, degrading your dignity. "Wise men say: only fools rush in" (if you ever remember this line in "can't help falling in love with you). But without relationship, your life is lonely. You look to the left, you see your lonely shadow. You look to the right, you see your soul drying up. I don't want to be like this. But the fear of being cheated, of breaking up, of not being loved back scares me ... yes, it scares me a lot.

there's a line in "how to touch a girl" that i really like: are you fiction or fact? And then I realise my fantasy and my imagination are just too good to be true. I am not important. I am not attractive. I am nothing but just a normal person. and then I understand now when people say "i don't want to face the truth". The truth is too painful when you have been living in your fantasy for so long ....

record-breaking week

this week is the record-breaking week. There is no week like this week. My gosh! After arriving at my home, I indulged myself in my mom's good food for the good part of the week. The whole week consists of time for eating, sleeping, more eating and sleeping ... and maybe some more time to go shopping and buy some new clothes ... and cut my hair also. Ha! I love this hair ... looks nice on me, I guess ... and so, i gained 2kg in just 5 days. Last year, I could gain 2kg in 2 weeks but this year ... whoa ... speechless ... no other words to say. But then today, the last day I stayed at home, I lost that 2kg in just 1 day ... diarrhoea if you want to know the reason why. Tsk tsk. Let's see ... I woke up at 0530 in the morning because of the sudden painful contraction in my stomach and found out I got diarrhoea and for the next 7 hours, I tossed and turned in pain on the mattress. My dad also got it. think it should be because those things we had eaten outside last night. Lucky enough, my mom did not eat it and thus, was still healthy and strong this morning to look after my dad and me ... my gosh! the whole morning of pain, medicine, concentrated mineral water, going to the toilet, vomitting, whining, ... then at round 1230, i got a little bit better and ate some porridge and went to sleep. At 1700, i woke up to find myself having a fever. Huhu. I wanted to cry. My mom had to go and ask the pharmacist near my house again. He said it was just because i lost too much water .. that's why i ran the fever. This is terrible ... some more medicine and concentrated mineral water ... I can tell you that the concentrated mineral water tastes awful but I have to drink it. Otherwise, i will not have enough salt in my body and all the cramps will come in. This is terrible! Now i know what it means to have diarrhoea. Remember those who wanted to skip PE saying that they had diarrhoea ... hmm ... bluff ... bluff ... BLUFF! you can't have diarrhoea and still "hihi haha" you know!

There was another episode of my mom and me trying to hunt the anti-malaria pills. two days wasted for those pills. Before I came back, my parents had already went and asked those local medical centre specialising in preventing the spread of infectious diseases. They already said that they do not use anti-malaria pills nowadays so they directed my parents to Pasteur vaccination centre. So, when i came back, my parents took me there. The receptionist said that I had to go to the vaccination centre for people going abroad because they don't have anything anti-malaria there. So we had to go there to find out we had to come back the following day because it was the end of their working day. *Angry already*. The next day, we went to that centre again and they said they don't have anything anti-malaria either (?) and then, directed us back to Pasteur vaccination centre (????!!!!!). The receptionist at Pasteur vaccination was such an annoying woman, she wanted to scold us because we didn't listen to her ... but she didn't listen to us either ... we already told her that they had no anti-malaria thing at the other centre! Lucky we met a doctor and he allowed us to go into one of the consultation room and asked. The doctor said we had to go to the Hospital for tropical diseases which is super duper very terribly far away. After arriving there, because I'm very tired now (haha), I won't tell you the whole long story there again .... haha ... anyway, we met one very good pharmacist who gave us the anti-malaria pills ... This is to know how inefficient the system here is. How much productive time is wasted just to go around and around and around like this! Never know to find anti-malaria pills is that difficult because anyway, this country is breeding ground for malaria ... not to degrade my country of origin but ... oh well, that's the way it is